I was asked this question this afternoon, "what happened to you?" in response to a declined request to participate in a course, ostensibly to strengthen my spiritual side.
Not being much of a sensitive person, I decided I'll brush it aside as a snide comment not worth a second thought. The fact that it still prevades belies that assumption. So, let's deal with it, and not just sweep it under the carpet as I tend to do things I'm uncomfortable with.
Firstly, I made a decision to back off considering my current situation - staying with mom and an unhappy wife in an uncomfortable house. That may not last, but until then, that's what it is. It's a delicate balancing act, and I'm not happy with the whole situation. Is this acceptable? No, and I don't expect anybody to accept it either, much less Mr KR here.
Secondly, true enough I need the reinforcement. No denying that. Has anyone come forward. Tbh, yes. But again, I had declined and the ball is on my foot. If I want to, once the situation improves I shall again do so. Would my new workplace be conducive? I hope to be more prepared this time round compared to before.
Thirdly, do I need to be slighted? No, because the challenge is the best way of getting things to move compared to the submissive, baik-baik nature of comments. Snide, explicit and brutal - that's the way. But also, don't just take la. Sometimes dish out.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
23rd June, 2008
Atrocious productivity if I may say so. So many diverse things to do, and in the end, doing very little of note. A case of biting off more than I can chew.
Right, let's have a bit of focus here. The key areas are:
1. developing a productive outlook
2. developing a learning mentality
3. focusing on the end-products
Sheesshhh - sounds like Covey.. already read the whole lot, but implementation is still poor. And I'm joining an organisation with a mantra of "execute, or be executed." Still hopeful of leniency and sympathy? Drop it, and focus on item 1. Now!
Right, let's have a bit of focus here. The key areas are:
1. developing a productive outlook
2. developing a learning mentality
3. focusing on the end-products
Sheesshhh - sounds like Covey.. already read the whole lot, but implementation is still poor. And I'm joining an organisation with a mantra of "execute, or be executed." Still hopeful of leniency and sympathy? Drop it, and focus on item 1. Now!
Saturday, June 21, 2008
20th June 2008, Friday
It's my Mom's birthday today, coming a day after my mother-in-laws. A nice quirk of fate that seems to intertwine both mine and my other half's fate. It is also a day which is instructive in the few pointers for life that I need to carry with me always.
1. The need to plan the day
Always easy to underestimate its impact but may be the most significant factor in ensuring success of daily deliverables / objectives.
2. Power of du'a
The du'a recited for the strength and continued harmony of the rakyat and govt of Sgor in the friday khutbah in Bangi. A reminder of my lackadaisical attitude towards faith and hope in Allah and leaving all matters to Him. Also, a reminder of how lacking I am in preparation for the next jump, although I know very well how desperately prepared I need to be.
3. Physical fitness
Managed to cross the swimming pool 5 times. Not bad. Need to develop confidence to tackle the deepend next, or sometime in the future.. ;-)
4. SM's politics
Amusing, but also instructive, how someone so limited in ability, but possessing courage and conviction to speak when required gets his third promotion in about a year and a half. Food for thought, eh. Also, don't be taken in by his praises and sweet talk. Believe, and it will be to your detriment.
5. Good effort, but...
Confused state after first attempt at selling. On looking back, I have a good product, but the lack of self-confidence, preparation and reluctance to seize the moment let me down. Believe! and deliver!
6. Good day, but...
Spoilt in the end. Yes, every one has their weakness, lack of self-control etc etc. For me, I need to understand and deliver my interests. Know what is right, differentiate from wrong, and stand firm. You know when you are right.
And May Allah grant me mercy and guidance.
1. The need to plan the day
Always easy to underestimate its impact but may be the most significant factor in ensuring success of daily deliverables / objectives.
2. Power of du'a
The du'a recited for the strength and continued harmony of the rakyat and govt of Sgor in the friday khutbah in Bangi. A reminder of my lackadaisical attitude towards faith and hope in Allah and leaving all matters to Him. Also, a reminder of how lacking I am in preparation for the next jump, although I know very well how desperately prepared I need to be.
3. Physical fitness
Managed to cross the swimming pool 5 times. Not bad. Need to develop confidence to tackle the deepend next, or sometime in the future.. ;-)
4. SM's politics
Amusing, but also instructive, how someone so limited in ability, but possessing courage and conviction to speak when required gets his third promotion in about a year and a half. Food for thought, eh. Also, don't be taken in by his praises and sweet talk. Believe, and it will be to your detriment.
5. Good effort, but...
Confused state after first attempt at selling. On looking back, I have a good product, but the lack of self-confidence, preparation and reluctance to seize the moment let me down. Believe! and deliver!
6. Good day, but...
Spoilt in the end. Yes, every one has their weakness, lack of self-control etc etc. For me, I need to understand and deliver my interests. Know what is right, differentiate from wrong, and stand firm. You know when you are right.
And May Allah grant me mercy and guidance.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Iftitah
Amazing la this tech stuff.. while I haven't really decided on the mood or the "look-and-feel" of the blog, it seems only right that in preparation of what I shall be doing next, I need to participate in this particular part of the universe. Primarily for acquaintance with the tech as well as the people related to it, but also as a means to sort, calibrate and inculcate thinking relevant to developing particular issues of relevance towards creating a better tomorrow.
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